Last week, Siri expressed her hope that 2021 would be better than 2020. And then the next day happened, so that hope’s already been shattered.
I’d like to say I’m surprised, but I’m really not.
I recently went back and looked at my posts from late 2019/early 2020. I was so optimistic, so ready. I had so many plans and was looking forward to getting them done.
And then 2020 happened.
I’ve wanted to be excited about it being a new year, but I haven’t been able to get up the energy to. I did eventually come up with goals for the month and year (like, late on the first), but I haven’t really acted on them.
(Part of that has been because I have a client edit that’s taking up most of my time. Part of that is that I’ve got an Among Us tournament that starts tomorrow, so I’ve been practicing that so I don’t embarrass myself. I mean, I probably will anyway, but here’s hoping.)
Do you feel that? Just…vaguely apathetic?
I want to be doing things. I have lots of things I want to get done. But actually doing them…it feels like too much, sometimes.
I’m hoping I’ll feel more into things once some of my current commitments finish up. Or maybe the world will get its act together.
Anyway, how are you? Any tips?
I usually have so much “time to get my act together” energy this time of year that I start lots of things and set lots of intentions and such. This year I’m keeping it simple. I chose “Sunny” as my word for 2021 (and it took it as a dare) and I’ve made lists but there’s only one thing I’m actually doing that’s new: a reading challenge. I have a tendency to re-read old favorites in times of stress and it takes me a lot of effort to pick up and read something I haven’t read before. So my 2021 challenge is a list of 40 books I want to read this year. I’ve already finished one and started four (five?) others. Because of the pandemic, I pulled a lot of books from my own shelves, but tomorrow I’m getting the first batch from the library. This is the only thing I’ve been able to get moving on. Maybe after I make some headway with it, I’ll be interested in other things. But reading is where I am right now.
I have done a lot of reading this pandemic. Easy to pick up and put down as necessary.