Vacation Time!

So, I did it! As I mentioned in my last post, I was in dire need of a break, so I found some time to take a week off. It was particularly tough because there still were a few odds and ends to take care of, but those weren’t really too big a deal. My clients were good with it, so I went for it.

It feels a bit odd, to be honest. I’m one of those people that can’t relax well. I need to “be productive” constantly, so relaxing or resting or whatever is like a foreign concept. This time, I made a to-do list. I know that is probably the opposite of “relaxing” and “resting,” but I always like to have some kind of plan…even if I blow it three days in. It includes writing, relaxation, reading…some cleaning, since my office is in dire need of it, and some serious catch up stuff. I’m also participating in a self-care challenge, which is just the thing I need to get myself out of this funk and maybe into a situation where I am feeling better on a regular basis. Because for me it’s been, “Self care? What’s that?” Terrible, I know. My only excuse is that in the midst of a health crisis, long work hours, life in general, the pandemic, sleep apnea crap, and general madness, it was way down on the list of priorities. And I know that is bad. So that’s why I am doing it.

I had to laugh at my Lenormad daily draw this afternoon. It was: Bouquet, Coffin, Clouds. Don’t worry. Coffin almost never means death. Coffin for me in a daily draw typically means rest. So I knew what that meant, but the Clouds (turmoil) and Bouquet (gift, happiness, social niceties) eluded me. As I usually do, I let it simmer as I went about my day. When I was in the shower, it hit me. Bouquet also simply means happiness. I’m on vacation, duh. Okay, so that one’s covered. What about the Clouds card? Well, I was feeling a bit of turmoil over my to-do list — stupid, I know! Because today is Tuesday (no kidding) and I feel horribly unproductive. See what I mean? Unproductive! On my vacation! I need professional help.

So yeah. I need to seriously let that go right now, seriously. Even my Tarot card for today called me out: 4 of Swords. “You better rest your ass, woman, or else.” Okay.

Imma gonna try. Hey, is there a class for chronic productive types who don’t know how to vacation properly? Hmmm. Maybe I need to create one.

*writes on to-do list*

*erases it*

Maybe when I’m not on vacation.

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